It started at Dave

I don't mind the scratches, you can leave me scars. You're the only one i ever miss like this.

Abrupt change takes place over a year, starting in October. My imagination is so god damn detailed-details hurt. Many things are shameful, you don't need to tell me, but I'll still say "take care." I wonder what it's like to be one the other end; maybe other time, but i wouldn't ever dare do that, because no, you don't make ME sick to my stomach.

Cells shaking

Blood pumping

Hearts throbbing

Feet running; pounding

Pupils swallow blue

I guess i didn't mind the mud i was sitting in

or the boy you were kissing at the time

Jealousy was lost and not yet found-it changed with a letter in Spain

Holding arms for support down stairs i swear were escalators

We walk in wrong directions to an interaction with mom that would change your summer

You left me from inside a car-i didn't quite know what was going on

I pace driveways in front of another, spoke of my brother

I let my wrists snap, fingers fall, uncontrollably, endlessly, in the back of a car-i didn't realize where it would take me.

It was me and only you; i missed you from a distance

and wished you were rocking bodies with me on her lonely floor.

She always had such a hopeless home

and it didn't even wear off for another six hours.